Monday, October 20, 2008

Red Letter Days, Or why I think the Chancellor of UNL, ought to seek another place of employment re: the bill ayers debacle





Here is a copy of the letter received by the faculty, and students at the University of Nebraska from Harvey Perlman Chancellor today.

EMPHASIS MINE, not his, frankly the entire thing should be in BOLD letters. I simply cannot believe the audacity of this letter.



A place to send our young minds to succeed is a cesspool.

But before, you read Chancellor Perlman's letter, I have this.

Chicago Tribune (via Knight-Ridder/Tribune News Service), (Dec 2001)
..."The Weatherman was linked to about a dozen bombings between 1970 and 1974 _ a bathroom in the Pentagon, a statue of a policeman in Chicago. Evidently in the process of assembling a bomb, three Weathermen were killed in an explosion in a Greenwich Village townhouse. New Yorker writer Elizabeth Kolbert noted that "It was sex and violence and, more specifically, the sexiness of violence that the group contributed to the revolutionary cause." She said that the Manson murders were treated by the Weathermen as an inspired political act, and she repeated a 1969 quote from Bernardine Dohrn, a leader of the group: " `Dig it,' Dohrn declared. `First they killed those pigs, then they ate dinner in the same room with them. Then they even shoved a fork into a victim's stomach. Wild.' " Seven paragraphs further down in the story, O'Shea came upon the part he could scarcely believe: "Dohrn teaches law at Northwestern University ..." Could it be that his alma mater (he graduated from NU Law in 1981) had put someone he now calls "an avowed terrorist" on its faculty? Reading further, he found that Dohrn's husband, William Ayers, also a Weatherman leader, is now teaching education at the University of Illinois-Chicago and had written a memoir, "Fugitive Days." In the book Ayers, 56, admits to, among other illegal acts, planning to bomb the Pentagon. He also appears unrepentant. "Guilty as hell, free as a bird _ it's a great country," he writes, noting that the real terrorists weren't him..."...



Here is the insulting letter that went out to faculty and staff...



I regret that during the controversy regarding William Ayers' visit to campus, I was in China and thus largely absent from the discussion. I am this morning meeting with the media.

I believe the controversy about Bill Ayers visiting this campus was heightened by a confluence of events which no one really could influence or predict. In February of this year, the College of Education and Human Sciences selected a speaker for its annual student research conference.

The topic was "qualitative methodology" and the committee eventually decided to invite William Ayers, a nationally recognized scholar in the field. In the 1960s Ayers engaged in violent acts in protest of the Vietnam War, for a while was a fugitive from justice, and eventually turned himself in. Prosecution of Ayers for these crimes was unsuccessful.

This year the research conference featuring Ayers coincided with a weekend in which the college also scheduled some significant events in its celebration of its centennial. Since the college expected alumni to be visiting the college, they were also invited to the conference, although the signature event for the centennial celebration was a dinner at which Ayers was to play no role.

Although Ayers' selection was widely known in the college for some time, it came to the public's attention only a few days ago in the midst of him having become a central figure in a bitterly contested presidential election. Given the national focus on his past and the appearance that his visit to Lincoln was related to the election, many people in Nebraska were furious.

Although I do not agree with this reaction, I can understand it and the concerns expressed. Given Ayers' background, reasonable people could regard him with disgust, yet our traditions permit individuals to speak, even if their backgrounds or ideas are objectionable. Nebraskans care deeply about their university. We cannot have a great university if the selection of speakers, faculty, curriculum, or activities is governed by the passions of the moment or even the views of the majority.

I want to emphasize one point as strongly as I can. I do not think the selection of Ayers to come to Lincoln to address a student research conference on research methodology was in any way inappropriate. He is an acknowledged scholar, a tenured faculty member at the University of Illinois Chicago, and a high ranking officer in the association dealing with this type of research. He was named "Chicago Citizen of the Year" in 1996 and has worked tirelessly to improve the Chicago public schools. Ayers has spoken at more than 70 universities, including Iowa State, North Dakota State, Indiana, Purdue, the University of Missouri, and Michigan State. In the final accounting of his life, there will be very negative entries for his conduct 40 years ago and there will be more current positive entries as well.

Much is made of the "fact" that he has not repented for his acts of violence. The evidence of whether he has expressly done so is uncertain, which could lead reasonable people to think he had not. It is clear that he currently leads a responsible life, one apparently devoted to improving the lives of school children in Illinois and in the nation. Repentance can come by deeds as well as by words.

The outrage by many Nebraskans was understandable but I think unfortunate to the extent it led them to seek to prevent him from coming. Most alarming, however, were some responses that were threatening to the security of the campus. As many of you know, we have faculty on this campus who specialize in assessing the level of threat in any situation and they informed me by e-mail in China that the tone and tenor of the e-mails, the phone calls, and the blogs, suggested that the reaction to any Ayers' visit would represent a significant threat to the safety of the campus. Moreover, it could create an environment that would prohibit the University from taking advantage of his expertise. The student research conference would turn into a three-ring circus.

After consultation between Barbara Couture, myself and Dean Kostelnik, it was decided to cancel his visit. There are some who are skeptical of this explanation for the cancellation and believe we were ordered by the Board of Regents or President Milliken to cancel the visit. I can assure you that we were not ordered to cancel the event and that I would resign before following such an order.

I find it difficult to accept that the actions of a few individuals can deprive this university of its right to select speakers who can contribute to the education of our students. Nonetheless I take seriously the responsibility I have for the safety of members of this community, particularly the students. It seemed cancellation was the most responsible action.

This university has always been able to invite and to host controversial speakers from all walks of life and all matters of persuasion. It is unnerving that the apparent escalating passion and violence of recent years makes the exercise of our traditional values more difficult. Once these events came together, there appeared to be no good alternative available.

I hope you will understand. I am convinced this was an unusual circumstance, one unlikely to repeat itself. I am a strong believer in our students' and faculty's right to determine for themselves who should be invited to campus to speak. But I also have a responsibility for the safety of this campus. Once these events came together, there appeared to be no good alternative available. I hope you will understand.

Harvey







Listen

Sunday, October 19, 2008

Redistribution of wealth, socialism, anthropomorphism, egalitarianism, and the other isms.

Why does this election have everyone sooo freaking exhausted?

It goes beyond the commmon complaints I hear. Dirty elections, mud slinging etc. Frankly, the media is creating all of that, as entertainment to schlep its Viagra, Volkswagons, and whatever else folks think are hot commodities right now.

I am exhausted, because I am having to defend my ethics, philosophy, and morals every single moment. I feel as though I am under attack.

Most of us are watching the news right now, as much as we can stand it.

It seems as though there is a divide in this great country of ours...

a divide over


Right to Life
Right to Liberty
Right to Property
Right to the Pursuit of Happiness
Right to Free Speech
Right to Self Defense


Redistribution of Wealth
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Must I really feel the need to get on my rooftop and shout to all of those in ear shot, why redistribution of wealth is a bad idea? Redistribution of wealth is an attack on those that are financially successful. A method to subsidize wealth to the unsuccessful.

People should BE ABLE to CHOOSE to be CHARITABLE to others, this should not be done by the government.

Which brings me to

Egalitarianism

From Merriam Webster
egalitarianism
One entry found.


Main Entry:
egal·i·tar·i·an·ism Listen to the pronunciation of egalitarianism
Pronunciation:
\-ē-ə-ˌni-zəm\
Function:
noun
Date:
1905

1 : a belief in human equality especially with respect to social, political, and economic rights and privileges 2 : a social philosophy advocating the removal of inequalities among people





Egalitarianism is impossible to achieve, without destruction. It is not concerned with the well being of any one person or persons. It is also a value based belief, and not a moral one. So who is to determine what has value? It is a resentment based belief.


OK next...

Altruism

from Merriam Webster

Main Entry:
al·tru·ism Listen to the pronunciation of altruism
Pronunciation:
\ˈal-trü-ˌi-zəm\
Etymology:
French altruisme, from autrui other people, from Old French, oblique case form of autre other, from Latin alter
Date:
1853

1 : unselfish regard for or devotion to the welfare of others 2 : behavior by an animal that is not beneficial to or may be harmful to itself but that benefits others of its species




Personally I prefer Ayn Rand

It is altruism that has corrupted and perverted human benevolence by regarding the giver as an object of immolation, and the receiver as a helplessly miserable object of pity who holds a mortgage on the lives of others - a doctrine which is extremely offensive to both parties, leaving men no choice but the roles of sacrificial victim or moral cannibal...
Ayn Rand, The Objectivist, June 1966




And now the wonderful "Is McCain calling Obama a socialist?"

OK....lets check.

Socialism

Merriam Webster


Main Entry:
so·cial·ism Listen to the pronunciation of socialism
Pronunciation:
\ˈsō-shə-ˌli-zəm\
Function:
noun
Date:
1837

1: any of various economic and political theories advocating collective or governmental ownership and administration of the means of production and distribution of goods2 a: a system of society or group living in which there is no private property b: a system or condition of society in which the means of production are owned and controlled by the state3: a stage of society in Marxist theory transitional between capitalism and communism and distinguished by unequal distribution of goods and pay according to work done



I do not want to live in a society, where I am denied property, or forced to give property away by my government. I should not be fearful, or ashamed of success. Once you take a persons drive to succeed away, you are left with empty shells. I do not want to be enslaved to a "collective ideal".

Tom Brokaw, the impartial journalist, and moderator of the second Presidential debate, well the nut doesn't fall far from....

Tom Brokaw sits on the board of the Robin Hood Foundation.

The foundation awarded ACORN a $456,000 grant in 2003 and a $365,000 grant in 2004. The Soros Fund Charitable Foundation, as in George Soros, a major bankroller of the left, gave the Robin Hood Foundation a $9,859,453 community development grant in 2000.

There must be something about October

That reminds people of parents that are no longer here.....

I have been thinking about my mother a lot. Particularly since I almost missed her birthday this month....

Here is a lovely poem by Deb... The funny thing here, is I could have almost written the same thing about my Mother. But I would have had to exchange Charlie perfume for her Mother's Taboo. My Mom also watched Days of Our Lives, and not guiding light....

Tammi, remembers her Father's birthday here.....

TIG, recalls a terrible day, and finds a poem to fit the day almost exactly...

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Hanging out by the state line, Turning holy water into wine

OK, I am done with Prince for the week...

That itty bitty ACORN?

I am sick of hearing about ACORN, well at least what the MSM has to say about ACORN. For some strange reason they are making it out as some "teeny, tiny, itsy, bitzy" organization.

Hilarious, and dangerous to assume such.

Click here to find out how teeny

*will take a few moments to LOAD! Worth the wait...

Friday, October 17, 2008

UNL CANCELS domestic terrorist Ayer's speech, at University 100 year celebration!

Now I can SAY GO BIG RED, without feeling like a complete communist!

No REALLY

However, the University gave this reason



BY MELISSA LEE / Lincoln Journal Star
Friday, Oct 17, 2008 - 06:30:42 pm CDT

The University of Nebraska-Lincoln announced late Friday it has canceled a Nov. 15 appearance by William Ayers for security reasons.

“The university’s threat assessment group monitored e-mails and other information UNL received... and identified safety concerns which resulted in the university canceling the event,” read a statement issued by UNL.


I actually think THIS might be THE REASON!

Phone calls, e-mails and statements poured in from alumni, donors, citizens and political leaders furious that Ayers had been chosen to help celebrate the education college’s 100th anniversary.

Callers flooded the offices of university leaders, some threatening to pull financial support unless UNL rescinded its invitation.


Regent's Chairman says...

“Who we invite matters,” Regents Chairman Chuck Hassebrook of Lyons said Thursday. “In all honesty, if I were that college, I would disinvite him. In general I just don’t think it’s a good thing to go around blowing other people up.”

The One Professor at UNL that was vocal about not wanting a domestic terrorist at UNL....

Right Wing Professor

Thursday, October 16, 2008

University of Nebraska welcomes domestic terrorist to be Keynote speaker....

Hat Tip, to Tammi



By MELISSA LEE/Lincoln Journal Star
Thursday, Oct 16, 2008 - 12:24:33 pm CDT

William Ayers, a founder of an organization that bombed public buildings in protest against the Vietnam War, has been invited to speak at the University of Nebraska-Lincoln next month.

Ayers is scheduled to deliver a keynote address Nov. 15 during a weekend celebration of the 100-year anniversary of the founding of UNL’s Teachers College, now called the College of Education and Human Sciences.


My Husband is Alumni from UNL, I too attended UNL for 2 1/2 years.

I will say this, the foundation, had better think twice, about calling this house and asking for any sort of financial support.

Feel free to call the Office of The Chancellor at (402) 472-2116, or email him at hperlman1@unl.edu

Or contact the President of UNL at (402) 472-8636

I actually called The Chancellor, and no one answered.

So I called the President at the University, and spoke of my utter disgust. As the wife of a Veteran, and as an American, and as a family of Alumni, the welcoming of an admitted terrorist sickens me.

Need money Alumni...?

Our money is from the Department of Defense, I do not think you want it...

stupid irons...

Too many irons in the fire right now.

My resume that I had worked sooo hard on...seriously.

Was pretty much called crap by a prospective employer. Not good.

Crap....

This resume stuff is seriously new to me. NEW.

Spending most of my life in health care or nursing meant, I NEVER needed one. I also relied on my reputation as a nurse for jobs.

Also the resume thing, is odd.... especially for someone that grew up in the Mid West.

Sell yourself. Just hard. Especially when you have a 6 year gap in employment, and are changing careers.

I know I can perform at this level, but now I need to convince them. And as I said before I can talk all day about myself, but boasting my skills. (YES I UNDERSTAND I NEED to) It is difficult.

I am all about proving myself.

So Tammi has offered her services, and she is trying to pimp it up.

The entire process makes my gut sick, it is very dog and pony.

In good news my Sister is here to see her niece and nephew, but has to leave tomorrow.

The Collective are THRILLED to have her.

Wish me luck on this resume.

The job I am applying for is PERFECT for me, and now I have to convince them of such....

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Still stuck in my head...

I mean really how many times, can an adult listen to, and sing a long with one song?

Pop life
Everybody needs a thrill
Pop life
We all got a space 2 fill
Pop life
Everybody cant be on top
But life it aint real funky
Unless its got that pop
Dig it

RSM, sent me the MP3.

Thank You!

Now I can dance while I dust.

And the folks might get throw me out SOON!

Brrrr...Momma

It is 44 degrees this morning.

Fireplace is on to get the chill off.

brrr...

In my defense, Arkansas was rarely 44 degrees.

Today PN and I are coat hunting.

Wish us luck.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Falling

Current weather

47°F
Feels Like
47°F

BRRRR....

I have a sweatshirt and jeans on. It is wet and rainy.

And collllld.

I need to get PN outfitted for winter tomorrow.

Also haircuts for The Collective.

I had to turn on the fireplace today to take the chill off the air.

I am a wussy.

Fall is here.

In good news, I found a job that has my name ALL OVER it. SERIOUSLY.

Already sent my resume.

My Sissy is coming tomorrow evening, and will spend the next couple of days here.

PN will be thrilled!!

They can craft, and craft, and have tea parties, and I might be able to PAINT.

All propaganda has to be popular and has to accommodate itself to the comprehension of the least intelligent of those whom it seeks to reach.

~Hitler




Weighing heavily on me over the past few months...

Two instances total, that stand out. But there are more.

And without throwing any one person under the bus, I will try and give details.

First a meeting with educators and parents. The parents being given information for the upcoming year.

Educator: "does anyone have questions?"

Random parent: "so, are we supposed to be reading to them? Like uh daily?"

I sat there, with eyes as large as saucers. And panned the room for other saucer eyed parents. I did not see any.

Second instance.

I was walking through the library, when I see a poster. On the poster is an artists rendering of a pancake, with a bacon mouth, a strawberry nose, and 2 eggs for eyes. It reads...and forgive me for not recalling the pharseology exactly...

"There is a reason breakfast is always smiling, feed your children"....

It feels like Monday...

DH had yesterday off, as did SR. It felt like Sunday all day.

DH was wiped after a week in Orlando for a work conference. Wiped.

(workaholic)

I managed to get him de-toxed from work yesterday. It took all day.

I do not think he has a day off for weeks.

Oye....

I applied for a yet another job yesterday.

This job as a "cashier"....M-F 9-5. Perfect.

Certainly I have the skill set to cashier...

I guess we will see, if they think I am qualified.

For the love of Pete.

I am still hoping to get on at the VA, but I am hearing it could take MONTHS...

oye.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Its a gas...

Gas was 2.79 today.

(cheering)

I never thought I would cheer for that....

I managed to get together with a long time girlfriend over the weekend. PN wanted to see her cousin, so she was dropped off there. I guess a weekend with 4 boys was not her cup of tea. So she spent the night with Auntie and Unlce and cousin curl, sans Momma, like a big girl.

SR and I went to my girlfriend's house, and had a lovely time. We went for pizza, the boys played legos, and were QUIET. She took us out to a pizza place for dinner. It was enjoyable, the boys were terrific.

Funny thing is, she has 3 boys, one of those is an EARLY riser. (SR does not do this any longer, thank goodness!)

We did manage to get all 4 boys out of the door by 9:30am, and we were at the zoo. Really the most perfect time to go. Very quiet, no crowds, or pushing. All boys were terrific.

I picked PN up today, she seemed to manage OK without dear Mom for the time she was gone....

When did this happen?

DH turns 40 tomorrow.

When did this happen.

I am sleeping with a 40 year old.

I need to run to the store tonight...

because I had a request to make this...

Apple Butter Spice Cake with Raisins, Nuts and Caramel

Bon Appetit, November 1992

2 cups all purpose flour
1 ¼ cups sugar
1 teaspoon baking soda
1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
½ teaspoon ground allspice
½ teaspoon salt
1 cup apple butter
¾ cup buttermilk
½ cup vegetable oil
3 large eggs
2 tablespoons unsulfured (light) molasses
1 cup golden raisins

Frosting
1 ½ pounds cream cheese, room temperature
2 cups powdered sugar
2 tablespoons unsulfured (light) molasses
¼ cup (1/2 stick) unsalted butter, room temperature
1 tablespoon vanilla extract

Caramel
¼ cup firmly packed dark brown sugar
1 tablespoon whipping cream
1½ cups chopped toasted walnuts



Preparation
For Cake: Preheat oven to 350°F. Butter and flour two 9-inch-diameter cake pans with 2-inch-high sides. Combine first 6 ingredients in large bowl. Whisk apple butter, buttermilk, oil, eggs, molasses and raisins in medium bowl to blend. Stir apple butter mixture into dry ingredients. Divide batter between prepared pans. Bake until tester inserted into center of cakes comes out clean, about 25 minutes. Transfer cakes to racks and cool 20 minutes. Run small sharp knife around pan sides to loosen cakes. Turn cakes onto parchment-lined racks and cool completely.
For Frosting: Beat cream cheese and sugar in medium bowl until smooth. Add molasses, butter and vanilla and beat just until smooth.
Place 1 cake layer on plate. Spread 1 1/2 cups frosting over. Top with second cake layer. Spread remaining frosting decoratively over top and sides of cake. Refrigerate while preparing caramel.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Whats the matter with your life?

Is the poverty bringing U down?
Is the mailman jerking U 'round?
Did he put your million dollar check
In someone else's box?

~Prince

I woke up with this song stuck in my head


I do not have this song on my IPOD?

someone send the darn thing.

Friday, October 10, 2008

dinner with my husband...

No not me, my friend, and blog Momma...

GREAT

I am #1: for how to get poop out the carpet...

I am #3: Why I did not get the job....

If I were Emma Peel, I am sure I would not get those.

Conversations with my Father....

Dad: "My 401K, and pension took a dump"

AWTM: "I say you take it out, and bet someone Obama wins."

Holy Crap...louis farrakhan Calls OBAMA the messiah!

I wonder if CNN will play this....

The 70's huh?

My bleak post about the daily events, spurred my friend AFW, to make a comment, about perhaps a return to the 70's.

You know jello mold salads, casseroles made with cream of mushroom soup, turning off the lights etc...

Maybe that means I have an opportunity of becoming the next Thelma Houston.

Seriously.



I mean in my head I sound exactly like Thelma Houston, I do....

Maybe I do not need to take a job writing grants for a non profit, or going back to nursing...?

Maybe I seriously need 2 turntables and a microphone.

Moms, gotta love em...

Last while I as concluding my day, AFW, hosted a show at SpouseBuzz, with the Moms from Parents Zone.

you can listen

Here

With the economy tanking...

I hope Americans stop going to movies...

Maybe Hollywood will shut the freak up.

I want to put my head in the sand, and forget humanity...

The World is a jumbled mess right now, I am trying to get ready for bed, but decided to turn on the news. Let me admit here, I think the news we see is crap. It does not cover global news. It is lazy and sultry. There is little in "actual news".

But tonight the news is disturbing.

Voter fraud. We a Nation of free thinking peoples, who try and help liberate the down trodden by assisting with elections.

The DOW is down 679 points.

The Dr Congo rebels have captured an Army base in DR Congo.

Baby farms being uncovered in Nigeria

The pending election is frightening to me. I love America. But I am watching the European, and Asian markets reacting to the American market. If that simple thing does not tell you where America lies in the World. When the Nation of capitalists in a Democratic Republic lead the way, and socialist economies are dependent on our success...I mean really that should say a lot. America, the country that is easy to hate, unless you need something, or a small favor.

My heart is aching for my children tonight.

I do not want them to grow up in "Mad Max", or BladeRunner, but what was fiction, actually seems closer to reality, than I had ever thought.

And, I knew this feeling was coming, it is a strange sense of impending doom, and I hope I am not correct.

Yesterday it hit me, and so I was talking to my Sister on the phone....

AWTM: "Things just look bleak."

Sissy: "I was thinking about the ocean, wasn't that the most relaxing vacation ever?"

AWTM: "It really was."

Sissy: "I was so noddley, it took days for me to snap to."

AWTM: "Lets go this year."

Sissy: "OK...sure"

AWTM: "Hell, the 15-16 of us can share a beach house to save $$, I do not care at this point, I think it would be good for everyone to unplug."

Sissy: "When?"

AWTM: "Let me actually get my Husband on board, before I just start planning a trip."

Sissy: "OK, but this sounds good."

AWTM: WE need something to look forward to.....All of us. Planning something might take our minds off of things....












*DH told me its a go....looking for a condo right now.

Thursday, October 09, 2008

And this is an example of why we do not need MORE government, you cannot make $#!* like this up...

I am currently applying for a position at the VA in healthcare...

they need nurses right?

Problem #1, there is only an outpatient clinic here.

Problem #2, there is no HR office here.

Problem #3, there are like 10 pages of paperwork...

Problem #4, one of the pages I have to sign, is a paperwork reduction act paper...

The case of the missing remote solved...

SR came out of his room with it this morning.

Turkey

Snow...

From the fine folks at weather.com

Snow levels should lower dramatically tonight and Friday, lowering below 3,000 feet from Wyoming to Oregon northward. Accumulating snow is possible below 3,000 feet by Friday evening.


Won't be long now.

CRAP.

Snow.

Ick.

and one more thing.

Notice the poll on the right hand top of the blog.

I am changing my name.

I never thought about ArmyWifeToddlerMom. I wanted to blog, and two minutes later I put it up.

I did not think I would stick with it.

OK, now that is out of the way, but now I cannot find the damn remote.

Good MORNING folks.

The laundry project. Not done. Go team.

Must do that today.

I did manage to get my new drivers license yesterday. I had a Nebraska license, but it had my Fathers address on it. Not good. So I managed to go down and get it properly done. I actually wore makeup, since the last photo looked like a mug shot.

While there, I also mananged to register to VOTE. Relief sigh. the entire process took like 5 minutes. No joke. I love Nebraska. Where else on Earth does a trip to the DMV take 5 minutes?

PN, did not like the "museum activities yesterday, she thought it was boring. Making a person out of leaves, looks boring, when you are in a children's museum with 3 levels of things to do. so we built a house, and played restaurant.

In bad news, I cannot locate the remote for the dish network. It has to be someplace. I am hoping I did not throw it away at this point. I have checked all of the usual suspected places. Couch cushions, chair cushions, etc....

I am going to put a big chain with a tire on it, like a gas station bathroom key.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Maybe we should change it from Halloween to dress your daughter like a whore for a day?

My friend over at Most Certainly Not covered this last year....

but I think it got worse.

OK, So PN wants to be a Princess AGAIN this year. It is pretty benign, as she tells me "they are pretend, and there are no real princesses." Wait until she finds out there are.

Anywho, so I start searching.

Holy Mother of God, who is buying these costumes for "girls" and "tweens?" (My guess, is the same parents who buy those stupid bratz dollz.

Here is a costume for a "girl"...

the sizes are a childs large.

Ok here is a costume for a tween that reads...

Description

Sexy strawberry girl is ready for the ice cream social - strawberry shortcake isn’t half as sweet! Looks good enough to eat.

WTF?

OK and now another childs costume,

A slutty childs cat costume, that looks nothing like a cat.


Note the children's costumes are shown with foot wear that resembles fetish wear. Creepy.

My Momma loves me...

unless she is jiving too.....

~B B King

Heard in the car today.

It made me laugh.

Seriously, BB King, is the only person that makes the blues feel good.

Now for something completely different

Taking PN to an activity today at The Childrens Museum, in good news, the even tis free of charge, because we are members.

"Apples an Autumn"

is the theme, and I am unsure what they will do.

I will say this, the poor thing is READY for school, and until I can find employment, she cannot go. She is my social butterfly.

So we will go and check it out, and I am hoping they offer a challenging activity.

It is bbrrrr.... here already. Fall is here.

I did make the collective pigs in blankets this morning, they thought it was hilarious.

I actually thought about turning the fireplace on, to take the chill off this morning.

SR is at my side explaining to me, that a quart is named as such because it is a quarter of a gallon.

I did realize I need to attack laundry today. I might actually watch a movie tonight, and catch up.

Things to do before it gets FREEZING

*PN needs a heavy coat

*WE need a sled

*Both kids need snowsuits

*we need a snowblower ASAP!!! (a large one, a nice one, we have a lot of sidewalk, and big driveway...any suggestions would be helpful)

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

The debate that was not...

Honestly folks, i thought this debate was the most lacklustre thing I have watched in weeks.

I do not watch much television to begin with...but really.

Ok, let me wipe the drool off of my sleeve.

Before going further...I am a McCain girl. Even though I disagree with almost any of his thoughts on the second amendment.

I also think he is a Republican lite, which makes him a Democrat in my book.

However I think Obama is a socialist. So there ya have it.

Socialism
:noun
1. a theory or system of social organization that advocates the vesting of the ownership and control of the means of production and distribution, of capital, land, etc., in the community as a whole.
2. procedure or practice in accordance with this theory.
3. (in Marxist theory) the stage following capitalism in the transition of a society to communism, characterized by the imperfect implementation of collectivist principles.


Both parties had nothing NEW to say. I had heard most of the empty rhetoric before.

Although the idea of the government buying homes in order to control the market frightens me.

Live Blogging The Debate with others, at Chucks

Go HERE

A funny thing happenned on the way through the internets...

You know when you are actually looking for a piece of information online, and then find more interesting things to read about...

Well I was looking up information on Clearwater Nebraska, and found out.

Ron L Hubbard was born in Tilden, Nebraska.

I just thought it was about the strangest bit of information that I did not know about Nebraska.

Malcom X born in Nebraska. I knew that.

Fred Astaire born in Nebraska. I knew that.

I even know where Kenny Rodgers graduated from New Mexico State University, even though he has no ties to my home state, and it means a squat of beans to me.

Because I like useless information.

However Tilden is a small town of like 600-1000 people, mostly farmers. Usually a town that size would tout a celebrity.

But I think Ron L Hubbard, is just tooo weird.

funny the things you think you will never forget...

The other day The Collective and I were grocery shopping.

Because I am antiquated, I was getting ready to write a check.

When I asked the date, the checker said.."October 4th".

And I stood there for a moment thinking, today would have been my Moms birthday, she would have been 67. And for 1 minute I stood there writing a check, feeling sad, and angry that she was gone, and than guilty for not remembering unprompted earlier in the day.

SR was 3 months old when she passed, PN was only a thought.

I would never have believed my Mother's birthday would go by almost unnoticed.

Monday, October 06, 2008

What Proganda machine?





In the last 48 hours, I have been told, I have listening to the propaganda machine...

Is there one?

If there is one, I would think it swings the other way.

Looks like I got hacked.

Holy Crap

I think I was hijacked...

I had to change my password...etc.

So this means, no blogroll or sitemeter.

Thank God, my archives are here...

Seriously. That would have been horrible

Hijacked, or something...

OK...

I have gotten about 5 emails letting me know my template is jacked...

I did nothing to the template today.

So I either got hijacked, which is possible, or it will correct itself.

I do not have the patience or time to correct this at the current moment.

I am also under redesign anywho for a new blog, becuase my children are not toddlers any longer...

If anyone knows an easy fix great...

If I have to read html code for more than 30 minutes, I might loose whatever sanity I have left

A vote for a Obama, is a vote for domestic, social and economic terrorism...





I am unsure who is "the undecided voter right now...

I do not know any.

Thank God

Sunday, October 05, 2008

Now I am itching to go shooting....

It has been a while, since I have been out shooting. (Yes, it has been that long)

It is always a wonderful stress reliever.

2 of my friends found themselves at gun shows yesterday.

Sarah wants to know what a good gun might be...

Melinda got to go with her DH, and was introduced to an entire new gun culture...

I dedicate this clip to both of you, and hope you each take the time to watch the entire movie..

Especially if you need something light and funny.

Still processing...

It is Sunday, the Collective are in the basement. SR is building with his Rokenbok, PN is trying to decorate her webkinz rooms online. There is no yelling or fighting...yet.

DH is sleeping in, which is a rarity. I am letting him sleep, as I try and figure out what I am going to make my family for brunch.

I continue to process this new information on my son, as the language, fears, and future have a new language attached to it. There are new terms, and new concepts for me to understand. And a bibliography I was given by the TAG coordinator, and 2 new books.

I am not ready to go into much of my processing right now, as it is happening as I type this. I will say this, I am relieved he does not have Asperger's Syndrome, it has been my biggest fear for the last 4 years, as well as the most suspect answer. I was very frightened of this diagnosis.

I will mention this though, the other day before meeting with the Psychologist, Teacher, and head of the TAG program...I told DH.

"DH, this IQ score better be off the charts, because it is the only way to explain what has been going on for the last 6 years, it is the only thing that could possibly explain our lives, his frustration and ability and my fatigue"....

And so the scores were literally off of the chart.

I keep getting "WOW, how exciting from family and friends....and even DH"....

Everyone around me telling me what fantastic news this is. And it is. My child is not ill, or afflicted with what had been presumed.

However, as his Mother......I sat at the table in the meeting DH on one side of me, my 4 year old daughter on the other.

And I heard this.

Psychologist: "Your son is operating on a level that is not completely measurable at this time because of his age, this number is an indicator. However, he is processing things at such a high level, that he is ahead of %99.9 of his peers."

And as a Mother, I sat there with my own IQ, which I have never had tested to my knowledge, because it has not been needed. I am going to assume I operate on "normal" which is I believe 89-119.

And I felt soooo separate from my son, for the first time in my life. I felt such an extreme sense of empathy towards my child at that time, I could feel my heart. I cannot describe that moment.

People with IQs over 160, they are 1-30,000.

His World view and perception of things are far different from most of us.

He knows he is different.

I also heard from staff, that he is TRYING HARDER than anyone they have seen.....

*to be continued at some point today...

I need to cook for hungry mouths, and prepare a backpack to take on a nature hike...

Also please note I realize I am blessed here, I KNOW, I am lucky and blessed that we are healthy, and there are no chronic health problems. As a person who grew up in a family with very ill siblings, I do understand this...it is why I became a nurse. However, this blog is where I process thought, and emotion....so if I have offended you with my feelings about this new path we are on, I do apologize...

Sarah Palin will be in Omaha tonight!

I was speaking with my Step Father in Law last night, who is a democratic delegate for the state of Nebraska....

Although the conversation was based on verbal jousting over this election season, I did get one gem out of the conversation.

Sarah Palin is going to be in Omaha this evening for a rally!!!

I want to go!! Seriously.

I wonder if I can manage to get the entire family there?

More Reading...

What was confused with possible Asperger's was

actually this..

Friday, October 03, 2008

Off the charts...

Today was a big day...
He is off the charts, literally.

I need a couple of days to process things...

This has made things make sense.

And because I am shallow...

Last night, I noted Biden's looks were a much bigger distraction than Palins.

First off, Biden has been getting Botox. It is obvious. However, it has only been given in the center of his forehead.

(Joe, I am sorry about this man, I have a high wrinkled forehead to, and almond squinty eyes, so in order to open my eyes, my forehead gets wrinkly...I should try botox, as it is distractin to others)

However, a helpful hint to those that tried to fix your wrinkly forehead...

This caused his eyelids to droop. And someone forgot about symmetry.

Hence they tried to raise up his brows, with some sort of clear gel type situation. I am guessing, preparation H, mixed with some sort of clear facial peel.

It looked insane, and was distracting.

did anyone else notice?

PLEASE Mr. PLEASE

GO VOTE for Soldier's Angels NOW!

Thursday, October 02, 2008

The debate is over...

Sarah and I talk often about our fondness of the movie Idiocracy...but I do not want to live there....




I missed a large portion of the debate tonight, I was helping co host, a very timely show on mortgages and home buying on SpouseBuzz Talk Radio.

So I caught the last 30 minutes of the debate.

I was waiting for Biden to Gaffe, because HE ALWAYS does, but someone must have cut him off at scotch #3.

First off, I was not thrilled with Palin's public appearances this week. The Couric interviews just were horrible. they were, and I think Palin came off very unpolished. OK half of the reason I like her, is because she is unpolished, but the magazine question, could have been handled better by my 6 year old. I am not sure what she was thinking. I am hoping she was thrown off by Couric running behind her nipping at her heels all day. Frankly, I would stand Miss Couric for about 3 minutes before putting her in a head lock. the McCain/Palin interview with Couric was equally as strange. I felt as though McCain came off as a Father figure defending his daughter....I am not sure why, but I kept waiting for Palin to take verbal swings at Couric, she did not.

And now I am living in Nebraska, which should be a red state, but it will not be. Based on the Agrarian dependent economy which is largly based on the depndence of subsadies, ethanol based, and railroad(union)..it is a toss really. I mean after all Chuck Hagel is ours....(shaking head)


So it will be interesting to see what the pundits say in the morning. I think folks have made up their minds already.

And in a country that is known for its marketing, team Obama might have beat McCain on this. The Obama t-shirts, bumper stickers, and campaign signs continue. It amazes me, but I see them in mass. It is frightening to me, that a picture with the words Hope scrawled under it, could work how it has. For a candidate to win based on marketing based on the similarities with socialist or communist propaganda.






But then again, one does not have to look far, to see how this was successful.

The best place to see how marketing works, is that ridiculous check out lane at the grocery store. the tiny books with your astrology crap printed in them, The Enquirer, a candy bar.....just in case.

I would like to think Palin's final remarks would have struck a chord with Americans.

I like being able to answer these tough questions without the filter, even, of the mainstream media kind of telling viewers what they've just heard. I'd rather be able to just speak to the American people like we just did.

And it's so important that the American people know of the choices that they have on November 4th.

I want to assure you that John McCain and I, we're going to fight for America. We're going to fight for the middle-class, average, everyday American family like mine.

I've been there. I know what the hurts are. I know what the challenges are. And, thank God, I know what the joys are, too, of living in America. We are so blessed. And I've always been proud to be an American. And so has John McCain.

We have to fight for our freedoms, also, economic and our national security freedoms.

It was Ronald Reagan who said that freedom is always just one generation away from extinction. We don't pass it to our children in the bloodstream; we have to fight for it and protect it, and then hand it to them so that they shall do the same, or we're going to find ourselves spending our sunset years telling our children and our children's children about a time in America, back in the day, when men and women were free.

We will fight for it, and there is only one man in this race who has really ever fought for you, and that's Sen. John McCain.


But for some reason, I don't know if the message is being heard.

I imagine if Biden and Palin were on Dancing With The Stars, America might have tuned in.

So tonight we learned that Biden and Palin LOVE ISREAL, (I wonder if anyone told Biden that
Obama's Trinity Church actually plays host to Palestinian Terror groups
) . We also learned that Biden and Palin LOVE the middle class. While biden touted being from a steel town, I was hoping Sarah Palin, would come back with a simple..."My husband the steel worker". and lets not forget the current mortgage crises/bail out/ lack of personal financial responsibility situation going on. While Palin did speak of people taking responsibility, and learning from the current situation, Biden pointed fingers at the Bush administration. Which is curious, particularly since .....

CountryWide, had a relationship with ACORN, which specialized in subprime lending...

The revisions also allowed for the first time the securitization of CRA-regulated loans containing subprime mortgages. The changes came as radical "housing rights" groups led by ACORN lobbied for such loans. ACORN at the time was represented by a young public-interest lawyer in Chicago by the name of Barack Obama.


Frankly, it seems so strange to me, that I live in a time where SO MUCH information is available for Americans to read, but no one is reading it.

I am headed to bed, maybe I will feel better in the morning...

Adorable...




Barmy Mamma, had a post up about clothes!! How fun, but she actually put up and Etsy site, that had some GREAT retro looking designs...

and as much as I like a swing dress, I cannot wear one, I have no waist any longer. I guess it happens with kids, liking food and such...

they do have the cutest wiggle dresses though, and I can do that...

If I find a job, I am getting one to vacuum in.

Not allowed in my home BRATZ/SLUTZ DOLLZ

Uhhhh, go ahead and watch this commercial...



First off these puffy lipped dollz....

I have hated these things from the beginning, and they just get worse. Please watch the darn commercial, note at 7 seconds, one is caught naked in the tub. 11 seconds, you have one sitting on the others lap. 26 seconds, the dolls look over friendly too...

Always curious...

OMAHA, Neb. - Warren Buffett's Berkshire Hathaway Inc. is investing $3 billion in General Electric Co., a huge vote of confidence for an American company battered by the credit crisis.

For the second time in just over a week, Berkshire Hathaway has moved to shore up a company long known for its ironclad fiscal health.

Buffett bought a $5 billion stake in Goldman Sachs last week after the famed investment bank's shares had slumped. Investors feared Goldman could face funding squeezes similar to Bear Stearns and Lehman Brothers.

Yesterday, Buffett praised Fairfield, Conn.-based, GE, which makes everything from light bulbs to jet engines and owns NBC television.

"GE is the symbol of American business to the world," Buffett said. "They have strong global brands and businesses. ... I am confident that GE will continue to be successful in the years to come."

But the conglomerates' shares have dropped 42 percent in the past year, badly hurt by its financing business, which accounts for nearly half its profit. And it has taken a big hit from falling consumer confidence, tighter credit and the collapse of housing markets.

Analysts said Buffett's endorsement will mean as much as or even more than Berkshire's cash.

"He's a smart guy and he wouldn't get involved if he doesn't think it's a great company. It's a nice endorsement. He doesn't make too many mistakes," said analyst Mike McGarr of Becker Capital in Portland, Ore.

Berkshire, based in Omaha, Neb., is buying $3 billion in preferred shares of GE, which carry a 10 percent dividend. The terms are similar to those Buffett struck with Goldman Sachs. Berkshire also has the option to buy $3 billion worth of GE common shares for $22.25 each at any time over five years. That was below GE's closing share price of $24.50 yesterday.

Like the Goldman Sachs deal, both sides will benefit, said Morningstar analyst Justin Fuller.

"I think they're kind of a win-win situation: great deals for Berkshire and good deals for the other companies," Fuller said. "I think in a lot of ways, Goldman and certainly GE, they're, in effect, buying Buffett's backing."

GE also plans to sell at least $12 billion worth of common stock to the public.

The value of stock sold to the public and Buffett totals $15 billion, enhancing GE's flexibility and giving the company "the opportunity to play offense in this market should conditions allow," said GE Chairman and Chief Executive Jeff Immelt.

Shares of GE fell by nearly 10 percent earlier yesterday after a negative analyst note. But the stock pared its losses on the Berkshire news, closing down $1, or 3.9 percent, at $24.50.

In a note to investors late Tuesday, analyst Nigel Coe of Deutsche Bank had cut his 2008 and 2008 GE earnings forecasts, citing a bleak outlook for the conglomerate's finance business, GE Capital.

GE's share value has fallen during the financial crisis on Wall Street over the past several weeks. Last week, GE warned that GE Capital would hurt overall earnings, lowering them about 10 percent, to between $19.5 billion and $21 billion, or $1.95 to $2.10 per share.

And in April, GE stunned Wall Street by reporting a 6 percent drop in first-quarter earnings, widely missing its own forecast.

Buffett has built Berkshire and its investment portfolio by buying proven, well-regarded companies that have fallen out of favor with most investors. Berkshire's investment portfolio reads like a who's who of American business, with sizable stakes in companies such as American Express Co., Coca-Cola Co., Kraft Foods and Wrigley gum.

Last month, Buffett's MidAmerican Energy Holdings announced a proposed deal to buy Baltimore-based Constellation Energy Group for $4.7 billion.

Ho Humm.....

Resume is complete.

What an complete pain in the ass. Seriously. For someone that talks about themselves everyday online, I had a hard time with it. Who knew.

I also applied for 15 jobs online.

I cannot believe Tammi has been doing this for months. It is icky.

Today I have some banking to do. (What is it 1950?)

I have a Parent Teacher conference with SR's teacher this afternoon, in addition to the meeting tomorrow with the Psychologist, teacher and social worker. Oye Vey.

PN is sooooo ready for school, I cannot even tell you. and frankly, I never thought I would say this, I am ready for her to go to school as well. The days are long.

I know nothing, new.

Could use prayers for the job search yawl...

I am just ready to go, we are all ready fro me to re join the workforce.

I would like to know how many folks are looking for jobs right now?

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Over and under

Even though that sounds dirty, it is not.

The job hunt continues, and I continue to have difficulty with this resume, particularly because it has nothing to do with my previous work experience.

If worse comes to worse, I am considering waiting tables. Seriously. I think although I am not 18 any longer, I might manage to make more in tips on a short shift than working at a desk for 8. I am still persuing a medical realted job for the public school systems.

My good girlfriend down the road from me is sending me her resume in the morning, so I can give it a gander and work my special magic.

I have the skelton of the darn thing, but nothing concrete yet.

The week is full of meetings. Thursday and Friday with SR school. I have decided to follow my gut on things, and just take one bite at a time. I am anxious about the IQ testing, because I think it might explain a lot. All I know right now, is the score is over 130, because he remains eligible for the t&g program.

DH swamped at work.

I have to plan a 40th birthday party for him here at the house. I figure kill 2 birds with 1 stone that way. House warming, 40th Birthday Party. Gee, I am sleeping with a 40 year old? When did this happen...? Any EASY menu suggestions would be welcome. I am unsure if I want finger foods, or if I want to do something easier...I thought finger foods might be the way to go.

I am going to try and finish priming our bedroom this week...wish me luck.

If I do not get it done, I will live...

Douche off

Monday, September 29, 2008

Resting in Peace...

Paul Newman died the other day...


I must thank him for teaching American movie female cinema goers on how one should be kissed.





A kiss should leave one breathless and dizzy

This kills me...

I should so do this..

In fact I think ALL BLOGGERS should do this...

Seriously, and if you do, I want to see it...

I want wives to interview their husbands..

Out of the anxiety tree again....

It was nice having family here this weekend.

My Dad helped me out of anxiety tree, over the SR issue...

One minute at a time, the reminder of how one eats an elephant.

He has come a long way, and I have to remember that...

Dad also helped me get a lot done. Odds and ends things.

But the odds and ends were driivng me nutso.

It is a fresh week!

Move forward.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Saturdays...

I am sitting here waiting for my Dad, his Lady, and my Sissy to show up any moment on my doorstep...

Fun.

We have a Birthday party to attend this afternoon.

Dad and Lady friend are going to the Nebraska vs Virginia Tech game tonight.

We have a fotoball party to go to...

Busy day...

Friday, September 26, 2008

out of the box, into the fire...

I managed to hand in another application, for a job in which the pay is mediocre, I am over qualified, but the hours are ALMOST ideal.

I found out yesterday while lunching with DH and his office mates, that they are stretched thin, and there is a lot of work to be done. He will have 2 weekends off in the next 4 months. One of those coinsiding with a SpouseBuzz event in Tacoma. So I need a job in which I am HERE, and present when The Collective are here.

This sort of caught me by surprise. I knew I needed amazing hours, but this is more proof of this.

There is a job I am interested in, but it is completely dirrerent than anything I am "used to"...it is not in the medical field, and that is where most of my working experience is. I will let you know, I am a great nurse, I do not LOVE the profession, but it is easy for me. It is second nature to me. It is autopilot, and although I enjoy it, I am still unsure if it is what I want to be when I grow up.

The new job, might be exciting, something different. there are a couple of things working against me. My age. People in this sector, are usually younger than my 38. I am also not sure what the hours would be, the description does not state it. It would also tie me in with a group of people i do not know a lot about.

The other exhausting feature of the week is...SR. What I have dreaded for the last 6 years, is about to come to a head. And I have thought about every single scenario I can over the last 6 years. I am still unsure the most ideal way to handle it. Because whatever decisions I make will stick, they will last a lifetime. That is a lot of pressure.

Right now we are playing this game....

Asperger's Syndrome, or gifted with asynchratic developement, along with all else that goes with these things. (which is A lot...)

Do I go ahead and get a diagnosis, athough the child is HIGH FUNCTIONING, and just needs to get used to his new envirement? OR do I bite the bullet, and just continue on the current path? Both I can do....Do I want to spend the next part of this journey stepping up my parenting 10 notches, or do I want to deal with IEPs, social workers, councilors, psychologists, buerocratic red tape.....with no real answers in the end, instead of just parenting like it is a marathon... No cure...

Let me also mention here, that SR is sooo high functioning, that when there are problems with sensory issues, frustration, etc...I get the "well you are a shitty parent vibe" from those around us that witness it. I will also let you know, I can spot these kids out now, not only by their behavior, but that of the parents, who are so highly armored with protecting the child in public that it makes me tear up when I see it....

There is no cure, there is no magic pill.

IT requires all of those in contact with SR to be patient and remain plugged into him 100% all of the time. When you unplugg, for 5 minutes there is potential for problems.

It is a marathon, and it is exhausting. Probably most exhausting for him.

And right now, there is no right answer, none....

Galt's Gulch....

Enjoy the read...

Thursday, September 25, 2008

For SR today...

i forgot there is field trip today...

uhhh..

later

changing sectors...

The last time I used my resume was 10 years ago. Frankly as a nurse you did not need a resume 10 years ago. The shortages were so bad, that I rarely looked for work. Seeking employment, was usually a phonecall from a former employer that transferred and wanted me to join the team.

So my experience with resumes is really non existant. I get to work on one today, because I am considering changing sectors entirely. and this job is the kind that usually goes to "someone's son or daughter". So I do not have high hopes, but it will get me out of the box that I am in. I am stretching here.

SR, is still having adjustment issues. He just seems mad. Most of it seems to be related to autnomy, and finding his spot in our new envirement. When you have easy kids, this is hard, but when you have SR, it makes you want to go in a corner and curl up in a ball. I frankly do not put much in the blog anymore, because most of the advice I get, works if the child is a average child. We are not dealing with that....And until I video tape a week in our life here, or until you have to deal with it, folks just will not get it. The school pysch called the other day, it seems as though the IQ testing is done, and now we have to go in and talk about it. I did not ask for information over the phone. They continue to pull him out of his class daily to go to talented and gifted program. Some days he does fine, others not. He does not get 6 year olds. The communication notebook I set up with his teacher, is not being filled out consistantly. Parent Teacher conferences are soon, and I guess we will need to figure it out.

PN, has been sweet, and is happy to have me home, she is still ready for school, but until I find employment she can not go. The cost of a program for her is $500-700 a month. WOW. So she is going to have to hang here with me, until that time.

DH's entire 2 month schedule is out, the NG work with the hurricanes, made his schedule wiggety whacked. I will be unable to go to SpouseBuzz Live in San Antonio at this time. I was looking forward to it. and I would encourage those in the area to attend. Darn schedules.

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

how do you finish off the day?

I do it by answering the cell phone, and having it literally break in 2 pieces.

Seriously.

So do not call the cell...

damn thing

Crazy times...

I was just notified of this by a friend...

Republican presidential candidate John McCain announced today he is suspending his campaign to return to Washington and focus on the crisis facing the U.S. economy. He challenged Democratic rival Barack Obama to do the same. McCain also requested that Friday's presidential debate be postponed.

PN grew a foot while I was gone...




She was in the 95% before I left, I came home, and she was taller.

I did take her to the children's museum yesterday. She wanted to go again today. I had to say, sorry. I need to unpack, and look for employment.

This job search is a confusing one....seriously. I have not worked forever. I feel unmarketable at this time, I am trying to get over it....but that is a pretty big hole.

I have to go take one application in today.

Cross your fingers, bury a statue, or whatever it is you people do do get this done.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Thumb drive sounds dirty to some folks....

I spoke with my Brother tonight, he kills me. He is not tech savy, at all.

Seriously.

First off, he thinks my blogging is one of the most ridiculous hobbies ever...which is cool with me really. It is a dorky hobby. And when I talk about my "friends", he will ask if they are real friends, or my computer friends. Frankly, most of my "real friends" are my computer friends. That all sounds dorky to him....

Anywho, so he asked how Vegas was, how much I won gambling. I don't gamble. I just don't. I used to like playing dogs, and horses. A skill a good "real friend" taught me when I was 16 and in high school, he also taught me the joy of gin around the same time. I also like blackjack, love blackjack. But seriously my frugal nature, makes it hard for me to drop $5 minimum bets down. I am just not lucky, nor think I will ever win big...I loathe slots. I have been to Las Vegas 2 times in the last 2 years, and have not wasted one red cent gambling.

He asked how the conference was, briefly, but he was most interested in the Penthouse party. Go figure.

So I told him, the Blackfive crew was very gracious to invite all of us, and the ladies at the Penthouse Club were all VERY SWEET. Something I am not sure if I expected or not. But they were. There were 4 "pets" there, and they were all sweet and actually signed headshots for DH, for his 40th birthday. They obliged the old married ladies, and did it smiling. They even stood up and smiled for pictures.

AWTM: "They were very nice, and made sure everyone got a complimentary issue, the headshots, and a penthouse thumbdrive."

Brother: crickets chirping, and the an "uhhhh"

AWTM: "a thumb drive"

Brother: an even more uncomfortable period of silence

AWTM: "a thumb drive, for the computer."

Brother: sighing, the biggest sigh of relief ever....


I am not sure what he thought a thumb drive was, or why he thought if it was something "dirty" I would just be so forthcoming with it, but it seriously had me in tears...

I remember Halloween....


*Misfits...enjoy


The wind will not stop blowing here, my river birch in the back are perpetually at an angle, and I am afraid it might be permanent.

Halloween is almost here, DH's favorite holiday. Probably my third. We cannot wait. The Collective however, do not enjoy the holiday. They loathe all of the spook stuff, even while shopping we have to avoid "the section".

PN is unsure who she wants to be this year, she has chosen "princesses and fairies" in the past. She likes trick or treating, because she would live with a sugar bag strapped to her neck like a feedbag if we would let her.

SR on the other hand, had to be told by the dentist 2 years in a row that "it was ok to consume candy once in a while." The Dentist told me, it was the first time he has ever had to do that.

I have been tossing costume ideas out for the entire family...

I think it would be hilarious if we went as ABBA, The Incredibles might work as well, Of course I always want to be Emma Peel, with DH as Steed, but that leaves me to dress up The Collective as random villians and then explaini who we are all night..."Huh, the Avengers?" "I do not get it?". We always think it would be funny to go as Beth and Dawg Chapman, bounty hunters, we just need big wigs, and over accesorize, a couple of balloons, and all is well.

However, I am sure the readers here at AWTM, are far more clever than I.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Some great photos...





via John Gaudia

Blog Expo screwed the pooch on this....

The most disappointing thing about Blog Expo, was essentially the lack of ability to blog, and not because I drank too much. The expo was not set up for "bloggers".

A power strip was hard to find, like gold.

The connection was worse than dial up.

Too many bloggers on one network, it was a disaster.

One of the best parts of Vegas...

Getting to meet Mr. and Mrs. G....

I could put Mrs. G in my pocket, seriously.

Mr. G. is too tall to fit in anyones pocket. I will say he totally reminds me of Daniel Day Lewis, seriously. Even his voice, I kept begging him to do the following...




he obliged a couple of times...

Thank you Greyhawks for all you do...

Blister in the sun

*written last evening

Leaving Las Vegas

I am sitting at The Las Vegas Airport, and recall how much I used to like Las Vegas.

I used to like Las Vegas more, but now it just makes me feel aged.

Did I have a great time? Heck Yeah. Was the MilBlogging Conference fantastic, Was the Party at the Penthouse Club the stuff legends are made of? Indeed. Do I regret going? No. When in Rome, and all of that.

I might recover next week or in October.


However, I will say Vegas burns fast.

I am a pacer by nature, I do not sit still for long, I have insomnia, (Which was not present this weekend, thank you Bombay Saphire) I watch people (which will tire you in Vegas. ), folks that normally only require 5 hours of sleep in suburbia, well they sleep less in Las Vegas. Maybe it is because I am 38? Maybe it is because I am a Mom, I am not sure when this happened. I overstimulate now , my filter is broken. And between the thumping music, the hoards of people, the constant boing sounds that jet out of the slots, lights that blink, mammoth pictures of Carrot Top, Barry Manilow plastered on the sides of buildings, the douchey Eurotrash, the douchey highlighted hair dudes, (there are a lot of douchey guys in Las Vegas...A LOT) hookers, inappropriately dressed females, too many fedoras on 23 year old guys who need to wash their hair, people flicking porn at me as I just try and walk by quickly. Andi actually calls Las Vegas "excessive", and that is probably the best word to describe it.

I went to Las Vegas this year, to see friends, meet new ones. DH was initially going to go. But has been VERY busy with his new assignment, and has not been able to spend a lot of extra time with The Collective, I have mentioned this before, but he is a workaholic, and "the new kid on the block". So he opted to stay at home and spend some good quality time with the kids. Vegas makes me miss NORMAL after the first 24 hours. I miss the three of them. This year has been a complicated one for us, there have been a lot of changes, a lot of them. The Mil-blogging conference was Dear Husbands treat for me, after the DITY PCS, etc. I needed some down time so I could play, and get refocused, we have a lot of projects in the works. Including AWTM heading back to the workforce.

And the excessive nature of Las Vegas (and my participation in such) made me LONG for my quiet normal, BORING existence.

I am ready.


Also, if someone set up little band aide booths all over in Vegas, you would make A LOT of cash...people would spend $20 in a pinch, because of poorly fitting shoes, and blisters.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

Blog Expo Milblog Panel #3

Live DOD Bloggers Roundtable

Host: Jack Holt Office of the Secretary of Defense

Special Guest Pete Geren, Secretary of The U.S. Army

Secretary Geren addresses the importance of technology, new media and generational difficulties. He understands the importance of information exchange. Admits to learning to find his way through the internet, but is amazed at the fluency of the younger sect.

John Donovan asks who the Army manages to handle new media, now that the DOD, is embracing blogging a year after having the nix put on blogging, how do you manage this fast moving ball?

Secretary Geren understands the fast pace of the technology, and finds it will be self correcting. He comments on traditional media the pace of it.

Bouhammer, asking Secretary Geren about "the rules".

Secretary Geren thinks this will be challenging, trying to get all services to agree on the amount of discretion that will be let to individual Commanders.

Secretary Geren discussing Roundtable discussion with SpouseBuzz, he found the information discussed to helpful, in fact he took one of the points of discussion from a Military Spouse and Parent. She feels as though parents are left out of the information. He took the suggestion as important, and they took the information and are addressing it soon, they are working on parental outreach program.

Chuck Z is addressing Secretary, he has questions about "the rules". Yes, we are talking about the rules again. Chuck Z, thinks it might be important to give folks guidelines. Particularly in cases of OPSEC.

Secretary Geren, thinks the suggestion although a good one, understands that it is a issue of allowing folks to speak freely, it is difficult to make the same rules for all involved.

Secretary Geren exits discussion.

Blog World Expo Milblog Panel 2

Milblogging as a Community.

Moderated by Melinda of SpouseBuzz, and Most Certainly not

Panelists includ Beth (FBL) of Soldier's Angels, and Fuzzilicious Thinking, Mrs. G of Mudville Gazette and Milblogs, Karen of Parent's Zone and Proud Liberal Army Wife, and Sarah of SpouseBuzz and Trying to Grok.

Melinda, opens the panel, and has each panel introduce themselves.

Melinda asks Sarah what posts are most popular, which posts get the most feedback. Sarah speaks of how most of the VERY personal posts are the ones that get the most reaction. When you discuss the possible death of your Husband, planning a family, being a lone during deployment, those are the posts that resonate with readers.

Melinda then asks Mrs. G, how on EARTH she manages The Dawn Patrol. (Mrs. G, who is entirely amazing Melinda adds!) It takes Mrs. G 3 hours to get The Dawn Patrol ready EACH DAY! (We thank you Mrs. G)

Melinda asks Beth about The Valout IT project. Beth explains how Valour IT was founded.

Question is now posed to LAW, who is the creater and a contributer to Parent's Zone. "What do you think your readers want to know?" LAW says, there is much to learn, and fast. There is military jargon, deployments, support, and understanding. Parents some times fall through cracks, they get left of FRG lists, etc.

Melinda introduces Military One Source. Military One Source is introducing several new programs for family support.

A question from the audience member about "making some Federal clearinghouse for veterans assistance"...this is actually the second question from this gentleman. It is starting to irritate me...REALLY.

I am chomping at the bit to say something. There is no way one entity can be the end all and be all to everyone. This is why "community support is the most important"....I do not understand why people do not understand this. It is frustrating for me to explaining this to anyone.

A great panel on stepping outside of ones self to help others...

Blog World Expo Milblog Panel 1

Are Milblogs Relevant?

Moderated by Ward Carol, military.com editor.

Ward discussing the span of milblogs over the past 5 years. How it has gone from obscure to The White House. Discusses Mudville Gazette and Blackfive.

How does one remain relvant?

Panelists introduce themselves.

They include, CJ Grisham of A Soldier's Perspective, Matt Burden of Blackfive, Greyhawk of Mudville Gazette and Milblogs, and Phil Carter of Intel Dump and Obama for America.


Panelists introduce themselves.

I actually think Blackfive, is summing this up nicely, because he understands, that one person cannot "help". He discusses energy of community.

Define relevant?

Ward actually makes a good point, about does this mean taking care of one another as a community, or affecting public discourse?

What is enough?

Phil Carter, a campaigner for Obama, actually discusses the relevance as the people that come and discuss public opinion, re: politics.

CJ speaks about how blogging is therapuetic for him, and how it really makes a difference in his day. (I soooo get this)

Greyhawk speaks about how he thinks blogging in theater has changed because of command issues, and how frankly folks in theater normally do not have much time to blog. Readership matters, numbers do not matter, who reads is important.

Matt says he really wants to remain relevant by continuing the tenants of Blackfive, helping those in the community, the wounded the fallen, that makes the difference.

Someone unfamiliar with the milblogging community stands to ask how the blogoshere can organize itself better?

Seriously?

Greyhawk educates the man quickly and explains, Soldier's Angels, Valour IT, and other support organizations that are the pinnicle of the milblogosphere.

CJ, wants to not only use his blog as therapy, to assist other soldiers.

John of Arghhhhh speaks about influencing political opinion from the blogosphere.

Soldier's Angel Holly stands to ask, who is the target audience, and who is the unattended audience?

Matt Burden speaking about his Mother finding his blog.....but likes that when people need help, they do find Blackfive.

Greyhawk, understands that that bloggers enjoy writing foremost. Typically bloggers are sort of "accidental" in obtaining audience. He also discusses Rick Rescorla, and how when he put the post up, the first commenter was Rescorla's widow.

Fellow SpouseBuzz writer Carren stands to make a comment about how Blogging was therapuetic for Chuck, and how the milblogosphere has helped families.

CJ is speaking about how writing has been therapy for his him. He feels uncomfortable discussing his experiance in theater and the after affects with his wife. So he blogs about it.

Greyhawk speaks about the some times unattended audience, and how at times those readers, are helped tremendously.

A fantastic job to all on this panel. Personally, this is part of the the conference I LOVE, it recharges me to do more, to volunteer more, to educate more people....

WEll DONE indeed

*Laughing Wolf has graciously lent me his camera for the last 2 days!! Much appreciated. As soon as I get those pics on drive, I will upload them...

Blogging Live from Las Vegas, Blog World Expo

I am here at Blog World Expo, and just watched a video sent from General Caldwell's office, who graciously opened the conference.

General Caldwell assures that the military, is learning to use new media, not only as a way to disseminate information, but to learn from those more familiar with the current technology.

General Caldwell does take part of Bloggers Roundtable discussions as well.

JP from milblogging.com is up now making opening remarks.

He speaks of the close knit nature of the milblogging community. I have never met JP before, as he was either just returning from deployment, or deployed. He is very funny and includes several "private blogosphere inside jokes", which seriously have lots of people laughing.

JP speaks of Andrew Olmstead fallen milblogger. JP spoke with Andrew's Father prior to coming to Las Vegas.

He reads a portion of Andrew's final post, a post that was left "just in case"....

and we know just in case happenned.

A moment of silence...for all of those who have fallen.

I am crying...

I do not think I am the only one...

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

peeking from behind the curtain...

Going dark never lasts long. Particularly when your lap top gets fixed! Hooray to the folks at the UNL 501 building again. I heart you.

While speaking to my DH this morning, between errands I was given strict orders to get my things packed, and not wait until the last minute. All because of the trip I made to the White House, where I almost missed my flight, and then threw my clothing into a suitcase, and forgot my makeup. (only to sit in airports for half of the day. Like having a Drill Sgt around.

In my defense I will say, I am not used to being a lady on the go. Nope. I am used t getting everything done first, and than me. (Like every other woman on the planet.)

SR had a stellar day at school yesterday, if you want a sort of idea go over to SpouseBuzz, because I posted about it there. I have decided to use last years system as a way of communicating with the teacher, and we will be working on a reward system.

There are never enough hours in the day, are there?

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Going Dark....until the lights blind me!

OK....

Dealing with the "kid" situation. Is there a good way to do anything? Or do you just do the best you can, or do what keeps everyone out of jail and therapy?

Trying to tie loose ends up round here for Hubby.

Also trying to figure out weather and such in Vegas, so I can pack.

Trying to get primer out of my hair, and nail beds (if they can be called that any longer) so I look human.

I also ironed linen curtains today....linen beaded curtains from Pottery Barn hell...I mean seriously, I bought linen beaded curtains. I must be insane. I will say they look awesome. Tried to iron some of my things for the trip. But I need to look at the weather in Vegas...it will be hotter than 2 hells and I will show up in a sweater...I managed to wash bedding, mop, oil base boards, and am still not done....I mean come on already. I think I am just getting used to LARGER space. Seriously. Not a valid complaint, but we were in a teeny space for so long. I lose folks here. Took the kids to the park after school, and even let them run through the sprinklers tonight. Go figure 41 in the morning,a nd hotter than blazes in the afternoon.

I pick up my laptop tomorrow! The guys at the 501 did an awesome job, SERIOUSLY. They were FAST and CHEAP. They are going on my list of cool people in town.

I have to go through bills, and make a run to the library in the a.m. we must return a stack of books, and I need something very light and distracting to read....I think Sedaris or Paluhnik are probably the ticket...

My eye is better! So my roommie in Vegas, will not be staring at a Cyclopes in her room...


Parenting

is the hardest JOB EVER.......

just saying

Monday, September 15, 2008

Is it Monday already?

I am deeming my old skool PC as inconvenient. It really is.

My ghetto Mac, should be back today, and looking gorgeous as they can make her. Thanks to the young college students at the 501 building at UNL! The last time I was in that building was 1990? Holy Moses.

The weekend was odd. DH only had Saturday off. We had decided to enjoy what looks like "fall." It seems early to me, it is not even October yet, but yes it was a tropical 41 degrees this a.m. So we took The Collective to Antelope Park. It was gorgeous, simply gorgeous, blue jeans weather. We then decided to take The Collective and ourselves to a Nebraska Institution. Valentino's. We actually went out of our way to go to the original Valentino's. We were disappointed. The food was mediocre, (we expected nothing more), service was fine, our waitress was very attentive and sweet. It was a question of "the setting". I guess I sort of think of Valentino's as a Nebraska legacy. Indeed the food has never been great, but the atmosphere was lacking. I felt like I was in just any other "pretend Italian restaurant".....tis a shame. We will not be going back.

We came home and watched the Nebraska game, and drank red beers. (beer and tomato juice. I can hear the puke sounds now. Throw a little pepper and Tabasco in, and it really is yummy! I promise. And you are actually getting some vitamin C, never bad. I forget that people think this is gross, because it is a normal beverage choice here. But in Arkansas, when and if you could find beer, if you asked for tomato juice, you would be banished to the parking lot. It just was not done, without folks making a huge gross deal about it. So I insist you try it.

I am cleaning the house today, so I can make my exit at the end of the week....

Viva Las Vegas!

As some of you have read, The folks from Blackfive are having a wing ding at the Penthouse Club. First..DH is very jealous he cannot go. Second....what does a 38 year old woman wear to such a place? After all it is Vegas. Vegas is a weird place. Last year I saw sooo many hookers, trannies, and just women who were dressed as such, I lost track. I had intended on wearing a simple black pencil skirt and black blouse. (I loathe black, but want to BLEND) But then a jeans ban got lifted, and all seem to be thrilled with wearing jeans. Well except for me. I do not think jeans are comfortable, unless they are worn OUT beyond repair, and have been washed to death...The Penthouse club? huh...who knew.

Now if I can repair this darn camera so I have proof of the insanity. I would also like a photo of me and a PET, just for DH....not for the sake of comparison....but it might be a nice gift for his 40 birthday...Is Miss October going to be there?

Friday, September 12, 2008

I love seeing forever....

*I have internet AGAIN.....finally.

MY Mac is in the shop, getting its little ghetto self fixed, after some hinge problems....

Then the server went down the same day. What are the odds?



I have not blogged much about being "back home"...

Frankly, it has just been busy. Not like crazy busy, just a steady long list of things to do with no end in sight. I am also married to a workaholic. It has been that way for 17 years, and I doubt if it changes any time soon. However, that is part of the reason I fell in love with him, his work ethic is AMAZING. He always is ready to go above and beyond what is expected.

I am craving routine, something we do not have at this time. I like "the grind"....I do not do well in this sort of unplanned day to day living. I need structure. Loose ends are not my favorite things...

Every morning when I wake I look out of doors, I am amazed... I am "back home"....the views (even in suburbia) go on forever. When I took The Collective to the pool about a month ago, SR and I were lying in the sun, trying to warm from the water which felt like ice, and he said..."Mom it is like living in a dome, there is nothing but sky". He got it, at 6. I did not get it at 6. I thought the World looked the same where ever you were.

So I am enjoying being back on the plains...

I am enjoying the endless skies, the sunsets that change every day, how the evenings cool off, I am enjoying the matter of fact nature of the people and do not feel so alien, I am enjoying family. And i understand how some folks do not get it. I do. The United States is a beautiful place with so many wonderful things to see right in our own backyard.

I know the plains are not every ones cup of tea. I understand, I have left here several times, to find myself surrounded my kudzu, and green, and trees, and flowers....and I loved the beauty of it. But I guess it was not home.

I am finding a comfort here, that I forgot. Living in Nebraska is like living in a small town...

Thursday, September 11, 2008

The day was long and hard...

And then I read this...

I thank God often for the opportunity to raise my daughters in a country where they are not ashamed of being a girl; where their beautiful faces are not covered; where the sun is allowed to shine on their arms and legs. It is safe to say that should someone try to change that while I draw breath, I'd go out swinging (or, shooting, as the case may be). Consider that fair warning should you be wanting to bring your brand of crazy onto my street...Not. On. My. Watch. And, unfortunately for you, I'm on watch all the time.


And I am glad I know her....

read the entire thing.