I am mad today, and that is ok.
I have tried to use the anger, and do something productive with it.
I am angry at myslef for not crossing my t-s and dotting my is, making my LPN license of no use to me in my current state...although I thought I had done all of the work needed.
I will work on this, I am angry with myself.
I am going to step back though and try and give myself a pep talk today, because I need one.
My Son got his repart card yesterday. He has been working hard 3-4 on everything, 4 being the highest. I know this is particularly hard for him, in the areas of behaviors. He has not had note reporting anything strange or odd for 3 weeks.
He has a presentation tomorrow at school, on the water cycle. He has been working on researching, visual aids, and learning the information so he can present it. Sadly, I will not be there to cheer him on, as I will be in Tacoma. However, DH is going to record it for me. SR's Spanish language mentor called last night, and was impressed with what SR has accomplished in just 2 weeks, he knows the months of the year, and can count to 60, and can have small conversations in Spanish. Much better than his Mother!
He is trying hard.
PN, remains frustrated with no school, which I am trying hard to remedy. We do work here, but I promise you she is a social child, she is amazingly social, and loves people, and the craziness of life, she wants to be in the middle of it. She is amazing in her own light, and wonderful way. She is light in this house.
I did not fuss much yesterday after getting the rejection letter, within an hour I was back to sending resumes out, and filling out applications.
I have made a couple of calls this morning, a couple of them seem quite promising. We will see.
It is on the backburner until Monday morning. I have a radio show to prep for tonight, for SpouseBuzz Radio on a subject near and dear to my heart on reintegration.
I also will be traveling to Tacoma tomorrow quite early in the morning for SpouseBuzz Live.
I am hoping these two things, will help me see beyond my own selfish journey right now, and I am sure they will....
I will be doing yoga Saturday bright and early, anyone want to join me?